order

i really wish i could say i wake up everyday and my life was in order.


i miss the days i used to crawl out of bed and be like wow its a new day, and look forward to it. its not so much anymore. i dont really feel my life is even my life right now.

everything is just such a mess, and thats the sad point, in reality it isn't. my life is absolutely fine on paper, but in my head, its like wow, something is completely screwed up.

i really have no one right now, and at the same time i have everyone that i had before.

joy.